Last year...

Exactly this time last year I was complacent. Sure, most people would say that with life complacency isn't the best thing but it's better than being on a downward spiral to who knows where. 

This time last year I had a small group of friends that I loved. I hung out with them almost everyday and if I wasn't with them I was constantly communicating with them.  My best friend and I never fought and I knew I could count on her for anything. To make a long story short I was in a really good place in my life. I was even able to eat in front of people. Granted they were small meals or a snack but it was a huge adjustment from where I had been.

Flash forward to this year and I no longer hang out with any of those people. I rarely talk to them actually. That best friend that I never fought with and I thought I could count on... well I was wrong. And I'm back to not being able to eat in public. 

It hurts to think how so much can change in a year. I'm in the process of change again. Losing another best friend... AND my little brothers. I'm not sure how I'm going to get through the goodbye. My heart is already aching.